Dear Arina Audi, happy birthday sweetie. If you were still alive, this would be your 21st birthday. I still miss you every day. I keep thinking about the day you passed away and it always sends a jolt to my heart. It is very painful without you Dee. Bila I teringat accident tu, I teringat the smell of the smoke from the car, the sound of your voice in pain and how suffocated I am after the seatbelt strained me.

There are times where I keep wondering why you went away so soon and why you went in that way. Tapi, people keep reminding me, semua ketentuan Allah. Siapa kita untuk soalkan takdir. I hope somehow, you know that you never left my mind and heart.

I keep going to the places we go to together, play the games you forced me to play and still have a  small heart attack when I hear bunyi loceng gelang kaki sebab you selalu pakai.

I remember our plans to celebrate your birthday tapi like people say, kita merancang tapi Allah yang menentukan.

I love you to bits and pieces, angel. Al Fatihah.

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